“So, here we are, now. At rock-bottom, focusing on the materialistic things around, blaming, though a little, and trying, with all that I have now left, to get better. It’s true that we are living with my parents, living off their money and food. And we can blame all – the conditions are not right, I have no money, or the pressure is just too much.
But I know very well, they are all just excuses. And so do you. That little sliver, minute it may be, of ego needs to brush off. But don’t hurry the process. It will take time. Just stick around. Don’t fall into your old habits, focus on what new are building.”
This is how my morning started today. With a little self-empowering self-talk. I have no past to look for. But a future to create. But when, sometimes, the past begins to materialize, I remember what I could have been. And, then sorrow hits me.
But I reel myself back to the present. I must, because this where I have plenty of time where I can work on something that I am proud of to share, like this blog. So, here I am, sitting on a chair writing this blog. I am in the present.
Now that I am here and right now, I need to calm down, put myself into focus. Realign, reimagine, and start the work all over again. Because this is a new day, the new birth of a something better or something learned. So, I let go of what I did yesterday, read out my goals joyfully and loudly, embrace the feelings and set my to-do list.
And, as I write, this hits me, “No one’s coming to save me. I can depend on me. It’s okay to be your best-friend. And the world owes you nothing. Nor do you owe the world anything. No one is better or bigger, but the same to me. My values are mine to care of, my time, energy and priorities are my responsibility.”
And, then I pull myself back. Trying not to overdo it.
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