The fact that I acted, in my teen years, as an adult with goals and didn’t achieve them yet.
Or…
I have been a narcissistic teenager. Thinking highly of me and never really achieving something significant. I put myself upon a pedestal, felt invincible and have fallen hard on my face.
Years in my college were filled with moments of inferiority. And so were my school years. And they continued even in my post-graduation.
So, why am I sharing this anyways with you?
As I have realised, and after a long time, I am nothing special. I am not on a pedestal, I too need to work for my goals, and being talented only helps if I work on improving it.
Being a narcissist in my life, I’ve learnt this the hard way. And still there are a lot of improvements that I need to do. A lot.
Cocky, arrogant, lazy, and entitled had left me in such a place that now I have nothing, built nothing, and have no life that I promised myself.
I have no better relationship with my friends, my family or me – the shame of not knowing what my true personality is.
And it gets tough as I realise that with each passing year, and passing time either I am getting closer to something meaningful or something inconsequential.
I have seen my friends have better plans than me. And I know comparing me is not a good thing to do, but it is what it is.
So, how do I start growing into a better person now?
This question is new to me. And the answer lies here with me. To change my lifestyle there’s a huge need to focus on my weaknesses, strengths, and things that I am grateful for.
This is only the beginning. And a tough job too. Getting into my old habits will be easier as they have become my habits. Changing my mindset is necessary for me to lead a good life and also a necessity for others out there too.
Instead of focusing on what others are doing, I must learn to focus on what I must do, build myself into a better person and meet and have new people and experiences.
Hope you find something significant in this article.
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