Day 3:
Finding a better way for my addiction.
It’s day 3 and I am having urges to watch porn. It is a way for me to avoid my feelings, which I have come to learn is never good for me. It was Tuesday morning, and I was in my bed and woke up early. There was no sound or any whisper. Alone in my bedroom, dark and warm, I had the urge to watch porn. “Why not I am alone and I have nothing to do.”
So, what did I do?
I stood up, went and cleaned myself. A simple way to get my mind focused on better life-building habits. But the urge still continued. So, I went to my bed and only laid there. With the urge gnawing at me, I imagined myself doing into it.
And it helped.
Learning from this experience I learned that I can substitute watching porn with a better habit. How is imagining a better way, you may ask?
Well, put simply, I achieved two different outcomes:
- Not watching porn.
- Using my imagination as a tool.
Both outcomes are good. But the second outcome, using my imagination, is even better. I got to use my brain to think, create, design and most of all turn things the way I want.
Taking this further, I stopped imagining arousing myself and started visualizing what I want to be. And now I can use my imagination whenever I want to.
Things that helped me let it make easier:
- Learning that imagination, for me, is an easy habit to do.
- To change I had to find something that gave me the same result.
In conclusion, I found something that was easy for me to do and at the same time gave me the same feeling.
Life Design 